I'm tryin so hard not to abandon this site but all i do is sleep and work. Once I get use to these tweck hours i'll be around more. This job is tripps me out. So many people..weird people...but its somehow all worth it in the end right?  I had this 35 yr old callin me for a minute but not anymore..i was too scared of him.I think he sensed it That's going to be my biggest hang up....trusting someone.

=( On a sadder note, Fias grandaddy passed away =*( .. Hearts are trying to mend ..

I'm ready to take on full time school and full time work...how? Not sure but i'll take it as I get it. Ima take a photo class which im soo excited about. A designated time for photography everyday..can't beat that huh? I've been takin more shots but can't find contentment in them. They seem soo rushed and meaningless I guess you could say. Taking the perfect picture is like kissing the perfect mouth, breathing, and then going in again for another cause once you've tasted a good thing you can only crave a little bit more.

kim.

-Guys Like That You're Sensitive
And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way
You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to
Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets
No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

Thats not the first test that i've taken that has said that either. eesh. i need some physical proof.

I havent wrote for a while cause i've been sooo tired.Have I got a story to tell you, but because im not in the mood ima leave out extra details and all that juice that makes a story interesting.
At work this weekend I was talkin to the dispensers and watchin a machine for a lady and this guy walks up to me and is like Hi, can you help me? Im here with my friends but I can't find them..where are you nickle machines and im like well they're scattered everywhere. They're not all in the same area.(( THIS IS AT 12:00am MIND YOU)).then he askes me about the quarter and penny machines..and i tell him the same thing. I could tell that he had been drinkin because of the smell and that he kept leanin towards me..Then he was like well can you show me some machines so i can find my friends and i was like sure hold on...then the lady came back and i was walkin everywhere showin him machines and like he couldnt find his friends and i was like well you can go to the front and page them and he goes nah i dont wanna do that can you show me some more ..so we went walkin and im like i dont really know where to go..where do you think they'd play? and he's like i dont know take me anywhere babi..n im like okay soo we walk and walk and then finally he yells YO QUIERO! and all his friends start yellin too heh and im like okay bye and he's like thank you sooo much its koo. well i wanna give you another tip..no its okay. no please..i really want to ..uhm okay ..soo blah blah blah he gives me the tip and as im leavin hes like..hey come back and see me okay? n i just said ok cause i knew my area wasnt anywhere near where he was soo i wouldnt run into him again. so i went back to talkin and stuff and like 30 minutes later i was makin drinks and like in my ear i hear can i buy some cigarettes here? and it was soo eerie and eeeee i like jumped and it was him. then i was like sure sure so i went and got him some real quick and he was like i dont know what im doing here i dont play and i was like just go find any random machine and play and hes like i dont know how and im like just push buttons and it'll work..so im walkin away to go deliver my drinks and he's followin me and then he's like well teach me to play..n i was like i cant im workin and he was like well after work and i was like  iono we'll see..soo i get rid of all my drinks and like i went by this section thats kinda secluded and in the back and he was there and he's like come here come here soo i go over then and he's like teach me how to play this one real quick please so i start teachin him and like the first push he won and he was all smiles and then the second time he didnt win and when i told him he didnt win he goes why not? and i started laughin and i was like iono you just didnt. Then he was just starin at me..n i was like what? n he was like whats your name again (( cause i had told him earlier )) and i was like kimm and he looked at me as tho i were lyin n i was like what i told you that earlier too...then i was lookin at his machine and he was like i wanna give you a kiss on the cheek..n i was like what?!..n he's was all close to my face and was like can i kiss you on the cheek..n i kinda just looked at him and he did it..i was like wtf. soo i stood up and was like uhmm i gotta go back tah work..n walked away...then he yells out hey ima win for you! i was like oh lord... so i was tripped out by that right soo anyways around 745 in the mornin they told me one of my tables needed me so i went over and it was him but he didnt recognize me right soo i played it off and went and got him his drink and when i came back he goes you get off at 8 right...don't worry i'll still be waitin for you to teach me to play..i was like fuck. oh i had told him what time i got off way earlier..why i do not know. sooo anyways i got off really at 8:30 soo as soon as i did i went home i was skurred. freaky people.

And that was suppose to be without details..oh well.

I got my new license today..it looks fake..like my picture is too big and colorful or something I dont know. Maybe my other one was just really dead lol. Atleast my eyebrows look nice on this one.

okeis ima go eat and go tah bed. I'll be postin more hopefully!

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy.
-When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch
Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.
From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.
And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

lol its sooo true tho...when in the case. Its hard for me to find guys cause im sooo damn shy. Only with doods too. its krayzie.

I hate one of the pit boss' soo much. He's just always madd glarin and givin me the wrong vibes all the time..i mean if you're gonna stare you can atleast smile or just move your face. geez! but then there's this other one...a blk one. he's sooo cute. Like he's always askin me tah bring him waters, and im like back tah third grade with my goofy ass.hehe and he has a smile thats just cryin beautiful, and he's alto=) muy bien. hehe. I hear he has a babi boy tho. o wellz i suppose. the good ones always have some kinda fault i guess you could say...?

They say you never know what you have until its gone..i think im gonna try anyways cause while its here its killin me.

// when love hurts it wont work //

kimmuh.